A private chat between two ‘upper echelon’ Dommes

A recent set of email exchanges between Mistress Tracy and I. Not for the faint of heart.

Hello Ms Scarlet,

Your comment spurred me to write you an email. I had stepped away from online activities for much of the past year. Life got busy and I was frankly just enjoying the fruits of my FLR privately.

For much of the past year myself and my maid Jane have been living at my boyfriend’s house. Jane has been living 24/7 as a girl for a year now. Her family is aware of her ‘desire’ to live as a woman and are supportive (particularly her mum), although they are not aware of the FLR aspect.

She is living a 24/7 lifestyle as our stay at home maid. There is next to no vanilla time as I don’t need it, I get all of that from my bull. The very rare times there are girly pamper nights together that, whilst I don’t act like a strict mistress, serve the purpose of emasculating her as much as possible.

Jane is content with her life. It is stress free and simple, even though it is deeply humiliating and emasculating for her. Her days are filled with chores and tedious tasks, completely feminised, a shadow of her former self. She serves both myself and my boyfriend however we wish, practically, sexually etc. There is MUCH that she would change if she could, but she lives for the domination too much like all Uxo’s so she will never get her wishes, it’ll only get worse.

We plan for this year to be a big year for us. Now that Jane is miserable but content I want to plan more permanent feminisation so she is booked for a therapist soon that specialises in transitioning, I’m hoping to start her on hormones soon and we have money saved for breast implants, an idea I got from the famous Ms Silk, that many of your blog readers are probably aware of.

I’m also planning on leaving my job as cabin crew this year, so I am keen to get her out and working again. Although I want her working a stereotypically feminine role if possible.

I hope you are well, I’ve loved keeping up with your blogs. I’m so happy for you that bitch boy has had his last orgasm.

So much love,

Miss Tracy

Ms Scarlet, wrote:

Of course, I now have so many questions!
I assume ‘Jane’ really does not wish to live 24/7 as a female?

I assume Jane remains in a 24/7/365 chastity device?

How often does Jane get an orgasm and in what circumstances?

God, ‘It’ll only get worse’ is such a hot phrase!
For the past month or so, when my bitch is really pleading how I am being ‘too cruel, much too cruel’, I truthfully answer, “You have no idea how cruel I am going to be, no idea!” And I mean it! He has no idea. It is so exhilarating, and arousing, isn’t it.

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My bitch-uxo gets no sex of any sort ever for him, no erections or orgasms ever,
and only touching my ‘special places’ with a successful 50-sided dice throw, he has had no success so far.
And, having him fluff me often,
And, how I now use whips and cane and quirt very cruelly, and apply many wraparound stokes, while he pleads like it is the end of the world, all just because I feel like it,
These things have culminated in a sense of being so utterly out of his league, I actually genuinely feel, he as an uxo, can never suffer enough for the privilege of being my slave-husband. The more in awe and worshipful of me he feels, and subconsciously displays, the more I want to make him suffer, a never ending downward spiral for him indeed! But upward for me.

How does your bull use Jane sexually?

Does Jane get to touch you, or please you sexually in any way?

I assume Jane had bisexual leanings from the get-go?

How does Jane react to the transitioning plans? Lots of pleading?

I do have a contact who is also enforcing transitioning – all the way physically! She has him past the point of passing the tests for eligibility for the big op.

Much love back at ya,
Scarlet

From: Tracy

I’m happy to answer questions!

Yes Jane does not wish to live 24/7 as a female. There are many times when I will ask her which parts of my domination she dislikes the most and top of the list is always feminisation. So or course in all my sadistic power, feminisation I push! That and I enjoy it if course.
Jane does remain in permanent chastity yes.
Jane does get orgasms, that’s a big thing where her and bitch boy differ. However her orgasms are only allowed through anal stimulation. We have a fucking machine which I will put her on and that can bring her to orgasm. It normally results in her having one every couple of months. She can’t orgasm on it every time.

I absolutely LOVE my cruelty. I love that she thinks I’ve done all I can and is in misery but I feel I haven’t even begun yet lol.

My bull uses Janes mouth regularly. With Jane’s almost daily blowjob training with the dildo for over a year she has gotten rather good at it, she’s been embarrassed to admit, so my boyfriend likes to use those talents.
He also has fucked her numerous times in her ‘pussy’ although that’s far less frequent.

Jane still gives me oral, particularly after I have had sex with my boyfriend, but other than she does not get to touch me sexually. I get all those sexual needs met from my lover after all. But her mouth is very talented. No caressing or touching of my wonderful body parts like my breasts. Girls like her don’t do that. If she wants to caress something she can stroke my boyfriends cock lol.

Jane never had bisexual leanings from the get go but when we were much more vanilla and she first admitted her humiliation kink she did mention ‘forced bi’. And I have a very good memory . But to be honest it’s far less bisexual and much more gay to be honest as I barely have her touch me sexually, which she HATES.

Jane has got her first therapist appointment today. She has been briefed by me on what to say as we need to ensure she gets prescribed those hormones. And I’m hoping the therapist can work on her confidence in entering the workforce as a female.
Omg Scarlet I’ve never heard such pleasing from her! She was a mess yesterday. I had to gag her and stick her on the fucking machine for a few hours just to shut her up. But after that and a few hours line writing she got the picture, that this is happening, it’s reality and she doesn’t have a choice whether she likes it or not. She can leave but she won’t.

I am absolutely in awe of what you’ve done with bitch boy. I hope you continue to make his later life just worse and worse!

Omg your contact sounds amazing! I’d love to hear more about them and maybe even if they had any advice. It’s so lovely to know I have some kindred spirits out there!

So much love,

Tracy

(You are welcome to post any of our correspondence)

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Dear Miss Scarlet,

I hope all is well with you.

Thanksgiving in America tomorrow and even in the UK we now have Black Friday to follow.

It will be a black Friday for my Uxo as you may remember he has several salon appointments that day. He is getting his first shellac pedicure!

I appreciate you are super busy but are you happy to share your thoughts on him having a Brazilian or Hollywood at his laser hair removal session?

One other quick point. I have been looking through your archives and noticed you referenced Petticoated. My darling Uxo was a centrefold in one edition. Unfortunately, I tried going through all the remaining links and I couldn’t find the edition he appeared in. I corresponded with both Susan MacDonald and her successor Helga who ran the site and I would happy to give you the background if it would be of interest.

With warm wishes
x

Ms Scarlet, wrote:
Thank you. Wonderful. More questions of course. I am insatiable.

So no orgasms though penis stimulation, and no full erection during any butt-fucked ‘orgasm’?

Does ‘Jane ‘ get sexually teased by you, visually and /or other ways, to increase ‘her’ sexual desperation?

Does ‘Jane ‘ get punished for infractions? Are the punishments enough to have her genuinely pleading?

Are you thinking the boob-job for ‘Jane’ or additional ‘surgey’ like the contact to whom I have referred?

Below are the most recent emails I got from her. I wonder if it is too far?? But he can always leave.

AN EMAIL FROM MY CONTACT

Hi Miss Scarlet,

Thank you for your reply. I totally understand, that’s exactly why I have kept such a low profile.

Other than you, I have a couple of friends who are in the know but that’s it.

I know it’s extreme and people may react adversely but since our original dialogue he has had the opportunity to walk away any time he wants. We both know he can’t because of how deeply his Uxoness is ingrained but to the neutral; it is he who is mad and should simply leave…

To answer your points:

He has bought me every sex toy under the sun to try and compensate for his own inadequacies, and I use them regularly. He can look but never touch. I have a friend who is single /separated. She and I had a three some with her personal trainer some 25 years our junior. That’s a story on its own. Ultimately I will take sexual partners. He knows that, he knows why and he knows he has no option but to accept it. If they are male I will only allow limited participation. I may let him watch once or twice. If female they will certainly participate!

He had one orgasm in 2020, one in 2021, one in 2022 and the last one was in August 2023.

He is kept in a chastity device 24/7. I have told him that it will only come off once his hormone therapy kicks in and he can no longer get an erection.

That’s a very good question. As a female possibly. But my ultimate plan here is not to turn him into a bimbo, but a nubile or attractive middle aged/older woman.
He will become my full time live in personal maid. Imagine Hyacinth Bucket. He will have very large breasts and a large posterior. He will be dressed permanently in good old fashioned matronly underwear: long line bra, girdle, bloomers, suspenders and stockings all covered with a proper slip. Then sensible shoes and floral print dresses. His maids outfits won’t be fishnets and frills more Victorian, ankle length heavy satin, long sleeves, high neck, zipped and locked at the back. Frilled tabard, same underwear and ankle boots.

If his hair grows back he will be having it permed very month and put in curlers every night if required but certainly in a sleep cap. He’ll be wearing 50’s style negligée’s at night etc. Otherwise I will purchase a series of wigs that will reflect the Hyacinth vibe.

Pearl earrings and pearl necklaces. An old woman’s scent (any ideas? likely something with rose or lavender).

I have had him made over professionally a couple of times. I am thinking of giving him another session for his Christmas present. This time I will ask the girls to make him over as Margaret Thatcher, Hyacinth and Sybil Fawlty. He hated Thatcher, and so if the photos are good I may get a portrait version done to hang in what is currently his office but will become my office.

I love him, he’s smart, funny, sensitive and caring. Otherwise doing what I do with him would not mean anything. So we do lots together: Dining, cinema, theatre, dog walks etc In those situations we are a regular couple. He just needs to see my eyes to know if he crosses any lines. He knows he will pay for it later.

Regarding his first operation; that’s part of my favourite cat and mouse act at the moment and our truth game. I likely won’t make a decision until the hormone therapy starts. My gut at the moment tells me he will have an orchiectomy first. Removing his balls will really remove the heart of his manhood.

Please do email me your questions as it makes me think about things from differing perspectives. It also highlights any flaws I may have in my thinking.

Please also let me know on which areas you would like more detail. I am proud of how this is going and the devotion he has for me. The power of Uxo can never be underestimated. No one has any idea how strong it is unless they have had first hand experience.

Lastly, can I ask one favour. Can you give me your view on his laser hair removal? I.e Stay with Brazilian or go full Hollywood? It’s trivial but I have told him it’s in your hands and of course he gets hard when he hears this as he is powerless to influence what happens !

With best wishes
x

From: Tracy

Thank you for the reply! I’ve missed corresponding with you!

And thank you for these insights into your other contact, it’s wonderful to know there are others out there doing similar things to me! I don’t think it’s too far at all, again they can always leave, and I always give that option to Jane!

Correct, no orgasms through penis stimulation and no erection during a butt fucked orgasm. I hear when I put her on hormones this year she will struggle to stay erect anyway which is exciting! She’s probably had her last erection ever and she doesn’t even know it!

Yes she does. I always try and have her in the room stop to attention or serving me whilst I get ready for dates with my boyfriend. I show her lingerie I will wear for him, have her brush my hair etc. and tease her about what she’ll never get hehe.

Yes she does. Strict canings from either me or worse I order my boyfriend too as they are even harder. Session on the fucking machine which she HATES and genuinely cries when she knows that’s coming.

I definitely won’t get rid of her little clitty as I like her to have the reminder of the manhood I’ve taken from her. But I’d be interested in other surgeries like butt ones for instance.

So much love,

Tracy

Ms Scarlet wrote:
I really like the concept of them not being able to become erect because of their own physiology, even if driven by hormone drugs, and even then, their little redundancy is still locked 24/7/365 in a cage anyway, and pointless, perfectly shaved balls hang underneath. I actually prefer that to an orchiectomy.
The scenario creates so many really hot interrelationship and role defining elements. Removing his ability to become erect in any circumstances, while retaining (perfectly shaved) genitalia, so the genitalia become the perfect proof that a male has been turned into a genderless, sex-free, toy, human porn, and utility-chore drone.
It reminds me of the least extreme of the artwork by O-M-L https://www.deviantart.com/o-m-l/gallery?deviationid=915089288#content
Examples you may like.

https://www.deviantart.com/o-m-l/art/Sissy-55-915089288

If you enlarge them you will see complete genitalia in a chastity device, but obviously never used or even thought about. But there to make visual the dynamic. A genderless, sex-free, toy, human porn, and utility-chore drone. The power-rush feeling we get through owning such a thing we can do whatever the fuck we want with is huge for me, and the arousal and orgasms off-the-scale.

I cannot unravel this typo ‘……in the room stop to attention or serving me whilst I get ready…’ ???

From Tracy

Do you know the reason why she wants to force transition her sub? I just wondered if it’s for the same reasons that I am doing the same to Jane! Yes the same reasons.

I honestly want Jane to be very girly girl instead of a matronly looking woman, as I find that is far more emasculating and humiliating for her.

I agree with you, I think in the other case, it is due to his age, when like my uxo, girly-girl does not really work aesthetically. (But parody of a little girl interacting with her dollies does for me as it is much more shame than he can stand.) And him in a maid in masses of frills outfit also works for me as he hates it. But no make-up wig etc. He is a man so dressed, not a transitioned ‘they’. I think if he was much, much younger, I would definitely look at the girly girl thing.

I wonder what her subs family will think when these operations happen. He has had to convince them, and he has achieved this, that he really wants a full physical transition to female.

The one and only, I think, difference between us, is I do not like to see men being dominant at all, or enjoying sex in any way. I am not attracted to men and so always prefer the ‘bull’ role in a threesome be undertaken by another woman. As I adore my vanilla time with my uxo, that will never happen, but I do cuckold him in that way from time to time with a lesbian lover staying over. (I also love to use and abuse female uxos btw!)

It is a real pleasure discussing the secrets we share.

Scarlet
x.

From: Tracy

Yes I agree, I definitely won’t be doing an orchiectomy for Jane. She will be getting basically everything but though. I’m going to take her as close as possible and make it so there is NO option for her to go back to being a man. A permanent girl for life. I have found that I’m rare among dominants in that I’m quite young (25) and Jane is too (30). And one of my biggest things I’m excited for even though it’s a long way off is that one day Jane will wake up and she would’ve been living as a forced girl for longer than she’s ever been a man. God it’s so delicious, I can’t wait!

Oh wow this OML artist is great, I’m gonna enjoy exploring their art this morning.

Sorry about that typo, it meant to say ‘in the room stood at attention or serving me whilst I get ready’.

I think our age also helps with the girly girl aesthetic, as I can make her look younger and I think the hormones are going to help with that even more, exciting!

I’m lucky that Janes’ family didn’t take too much convincing. She has a very small family and her mother has been very supportive. In fact she’s taking Jane out on a mother daughter shopping trip today. Janes’ relationship with her mother has certainly changed. I think one of the biggest humiliations she has ever faced, even more than sucking my boyfriends cock, was when her mum not only supports her transition, but said ‘You really suit being a girl more than you did a man sweetie.’ lol

I completely understand you not wanting to see men dominant at all, I think that’s probably a trait shared with many dominant women. I do however like physical sex with a man, I need to get my ‘fix’ and obviously couldn’t with Jane. But I certainly do all of the decision making in the household. I can’t not be non-sexually dominant in all aspects of my home life.

I have such fun discussing with you. Thank you for sharing with me.

Tracy

Ms Scarlet, wrote:
So you do not live with your bull?

Scarlet

Tracy, wrote:
Yes we do! We both live at my boyfriends house at the moment!

How has bitch boy coped since his last ever orgasm? Has there been very intense moments of begging, regret and pleading?

Much love

Tracy

He has to cope of course as he has no option but to, however he is really, really, really struggling to cope.

When I give him a visual tease display with some killer poses, which seems to have become everyday while I am naked sometime, (donning either my Ugg boots or stripper heels), he dry sobs and sobs, sometimes with tears at the corner of his eyes) and tells me he has never felt so sexually desperate and frustrated.

He did cum on 13^th Jan, but I have learnt that an orgasm after over eight months of denial really does not get rid of the desperation that has been mounting for so very long. I think also, because he has such fortitude and resilience in all things, when he knew there would be an orgasm sometime in the future, he focussed on that. But now he has nothing to focus on but how terribly frustrated and desperate he already is, and how it can only get worse and worse for ever more.

I feel so powerful and cruel, and totally out-of-his-league, as he begs just to touch me for a moment, or just plant some kisses on my butt, and I simply say no…….., but if he is lucky I might allow a 50-sided dice throw soon for such a treat.

His problem is that the more totally out-of-his- league I feel, the more I actually think he does not deserve to touch me. And the more he begs to so pathetically, the more totally out-of-his- league I feel. A terrible downward spiral for him!

Scarlet

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