Finally, I have started to realize that those who do not look for you, do not miss you. Those who do not miss you, are not there for you. That destiny determines who enters your life, but you ultimately determine who stays. That the truth only hurts once, and a lie hurts every time you remember it. There are three things in life which leave and never return; words, time, and opportunities. Therefore value who values you, and do not treat as a priority those who treat you as an option. Priorities Vs. Options…

i was asked about a writing like this a few weeks ago when i recieved an extremely high compliment. I’ve taken my time with it and deleted multiple beginning drafts because this isn’t a subject or a writing that itake lightly. Slavery, submitting- it’s not a casual thing for me. It’s the way my brain is wired. It’s the way i think. Of course i make mistakes, i’m human, i’m bipolar and sometimes my brain short circuits. i would like to say that of course i know what a slave is supposed to be. But i can’t say that. i can only say what a slave is supposed to be for me. For me it means watching what needs to be done and [...]

The instantaneous shock, gasp, moan…. My body protests and resists for a second or two, but then the ache in my pussy takes over… Tada…. brain is a pile of mush. Once your hands are wrapped in my hair, you pull my head back firmly, claim my neck, throat, and growl lovely words in my ear, that’s the moment I become yours. Oh… and how you bite that one spot on my neck… you know the one, my moans escalate to squeaks, cries, and sometimes tears of joy. Then when my knees weaken, use my hair to guide me to where we both love me to be. My lips, mouth, all hungry and ache to devour you, to take you and deprive myself [...]

Sure, I could call you master. I could call you sir. I could address you as daddy. I would call you anything you asked and follow your rules. I’ll wear any clothes you ask. Take the picture you request. I’ll suck until were both dehydrated. I’ll take a fucking, and the bruises that come with it. I’ll come back for more, like your own personal bunny. I’ll bow down. I’ll be obedient. I’ll answer any question with absolute honesty. Do all that is asked. But unless you can afford to help me in my life, I cant afford you the time. I’m not going to lead you on, I come with a price. Unless your willing to treat me for being a good [...]

…I have worked on the platonic ones. I was raised in a household with toxic mindsets that taught me versions of love that were inherently designed to hurt me, and be selfish. I was taught that all relationships were ‘give and take’. That all relationships came with ‘duty’ and ‘obligation’. Then, I joined the community, where I realized that I needed to reparent myself. And oh boy, has that been a journey. I started from scratch. I read about what love is, what love means to others, and what my love languages are. I learned about negotiations, relationship expectations, and the type of relationships. I learned about unconditional love, conditional love, and more. I’m at a place where I realize that I am not ready for any kind of romantic relationship. Maybe a [...]