Image by Sardax. www.Sardax.com Installment #16 – “Running the Numbers” as Mistress Ayn’s slaveboy Sometimes “running the numbers” – i.e., counting things – helps explain what it means to be Mistress Ayn’s slaveboy.  Before i became Mistress Ayn’s slaveboy, i would typically masturbate every two to three days.  Then, Mistress Ayn placed me in indefinite chastity and Her cock became completely under Her control.  Running the numbers, i would have masturbated regularly during the past eight months (around 242 days), from when Mistress Ayn agreed to be my Keyholder until now, and had around 97 orgasms. As Mistress Ayn’s slaveboy, things have certainly changed.  i have been permitted eight, yes eight, orgasms over the past eight months — not exactly the 97 orgasms [...]

How to present your tribute: Have it ready – counting out your tribute in front of Me is uncouth. Whether intended or not, I see it as a passive aggressive move to remind Me that you are paying and therefore in control. It’s not the best way to start your session. Have it in a plain, unsealed envelope. Even if you have been seeing Me for years, I may count the tribute in private before we start.  Especially if it’s a double or the tribute deviates from our norm.  I prefer not to have to rip the envelope open to do this check. Don’t write anything on the envelope. I would prefer not to have a bunch of envelopes with “Mistress Ayn” floating [...]

Installment #15 – Control + Humiliation + Punishment in the Simplest of Things – by slave boy i am committed to being Mistress Ayn’s chaste slave, Her slaveboy.  To simplify, this means that She is in complete control of me, will humiliate me as She deems necessary, and will impose punishment as needed or for no reason at all.  The combination of = control + humiliation + punishment has clearly crystallized my role as Mistress Ayn’s chaste slaveboy.  i find this combination in the simplest of experiences, especially when visiting Mistress Ayn at the FemDom Mansion. Eating – all nourishment is in the form of table scraps served in a dog bowl consumed without the use of my hands = control + humiliation [...]

My quarterly sojourn to Washington, DC is just around the corner and now is the time to secure a place at My feet.  FemDom sessions begin September 9th for 3 days only. For those that have not sessioned with Me, here are My interests: Body Worship – Respectful feet, legs and ass Bondage – from the light to the extreme CBT (Cock and ball torment) Corporal Punishment – bare hand, OTK, hairbrush, floggers, paddles, crops, canes, whips, etc. Electro torture/stimulation (ErosTek) Face sitting and smothering (clothed) Feminization – from pantying to makeup and lingerie Foot Fetish – including boot and shoe worship – I have an extensive shoe collection and requests in advance are entertained. Humiliation and degradation Medical Play – including naughty [...]

Installment #14 – When serving a Mistress, not Mistress Ayn – by slaveboy For months, Mistress Ayn has been my Alpha Mistress, my Keyholder.  There is no incentive to change anything about this relationship from my perspective, nor do i want to do anything that would jeopardize this relationship.  Yet, i do not get to Atlanta to serve Mistress Ayn as often as i wish, but i do travel to other cities for business.  So, when visiting Chicago, Los Angeles and New York City, recently, i humbly asked permission from Mistress Ayn to serve another Mistress: Mistress Estelle Sinclair, Mistress Isabella Sinclaire and Mistress Troy, respectively.  Mistress Ayn provided Her permission and in one case even instructed me to serve the Mistresses, knowing [...]

Get ready Big D because I intend to mess you up. I will be invading your town and your mind August 12th – 14th so plan accordingly. Domina Daria is opening Her play space to Me and double sessions are even available for the brave or foolish. Keep reading . . . For those that have not sessioned with Me, here are My interests: Body Worship – Respectful feet, legs and ass Bondage – from the light to the extreme CBT (Cock and ball torment) Corporal Punishment – bare hand, OTK, hairbrush, floggers, paddles, crops, canes, whips, etc. Electro torture/stimulation (ErosTek) Face sitting and smothering (clothed) Feminization – from pantying to makeup and lingerie Foot Fetish – including boot and shoe worship – [...]

 Installment # 13 – Chastity “Cuckolding” As many know, typically, a cuckold is when a male changes his role from sexual partner to chaste submissive and the Female takes on other sexual partners.  The male is no longer the alpha and there may be many other males in the Female’s life, as it should be.  While i have never been more than a submissive to Mistress Ayn, i did realize the other day that i am a “chaste cuckold” of sorts.  i knew that Mistress Ayn had other males in Her life – some for Her sexual pleasure and others as submissives to serve Her in a variety of roles, as well as some female submissives.  The other day it became clear to [...]

I have never been a smoker so smoking is not something I enjoy.  Early on I realized that doing things in session that I don’t genuinly like is very short sighted.  I love FemDom sessions and I want to keep it that way. Smoking is not necessarily repulsive to Me and I have to admit to trying it in session a time or two.  It was kind of fun; blowing smoke in a slave’s face and flicking My ashes at him, but it smelled up the entire Dungeon and the new wore off quickly.  It’s just not Me.  So, no, I do not offer smoking sessions. There are plenty of Mistresses that do and that truly enjoy both the cigarette/cigar and dominating you [...]

Usually I complain that subs watch way too many FemDom videos and then expect a session to be like what they watch.  Often what’s depicted in clips is not at all what a real session is like.  However, a recent submissive showed Me that sometimes expectations are realized and even exceeded.   In his words:   As someone who has watched way more femdom videos than I’ll ever admit to, I have to say that you nailed so many of the things that get me excited, I felt like I was in one of those videos.   Things like: – telling me to take it when whipping me – spitting on the strap-on – the way you put your glove in my mouth [...]

Installment #12 – The submissive side overcoming the dominant side Since i was a teen-ager i have been dominant. i have been in control of every romantic relationship, led nearly every organization i was a member, and professionally am entrusted with leading others. i see myself as a servant leader in my professional life – always seeking to care for and help others but also always the leader, taking charge, being in control. Now focusing on my submissive side, Mistress Ayn is seeking to enable that aspect of my personality to emerge – it is quite a challenge. When in Her presence for slave training, i find myself resisting letting go of my dominant side. i try to control the situation, often verbally [...]