With a heavy heart, I bring news of Michael’s (aka Ayn’s Toy and Wheelz) death. He was taken from us suddenly and the sun has seemed a little dimmer ever since. Michael touched the lives of so many in our community with his kind words, encouragement and humor. He was a joy and an inspiration to all that knew him. On May 2nd of this year, I put a collar on Michael’s neck, acknowledging his status of belonging.  It was not a commitment either of us took lightly.  He made Me proud in so many ways and I believe he would say it completed him.  In Me, and our community, he found a safe place – a place he said felt like home.  [...]

  Installment 31 – When a submissive is asked by his Mistress: “What do you think?” – by slaveboy. In the heat of an intense tease and denial session, Mistress Ayn asked me: “Do you want to cum, slaveboy?”  The obvious, immediate, physically induced, sexually frustrated answer is: “Yes, please, Mistress, please let me cum.”  Yet, deep down inside, at the core of my submissive nature, there is a desire for denial, to be kept from an orgasm by my dominant Mistress.  i crave to be stopped just short of an orgasm and ordered to be locked back into Her chastity cage. This moment caused me to reflect later – “should a submissive be asked what s/he thinks or wants?”  i am less [...]

Collaring a submissive is something I have always been resistant to, for several reasons.  I am a believer in long term relationships and I take commitment very seriously.  The act of collaring, to Me, is not a whim.  On the contrary it is much like a marriage.  I become responsible for the sub and everything the sub does is now a reflection on Me.  That’s heavy stuff. The pandemic has been difficult in many ways but it has made Me reevaluate the things that are important to Me.  When times are difficult you learn who you can really depend on  and it became clear to Me that I have some spectacular subs.  Among those a few really stand out because of their long [...]

Installment # 30 – Mistress Ayn: The “Steven Spielberg of FemDom” As many know, Steven Spielberg is one of the world’s premier movie directors.  My observations of, and experiences with, Mistress Ayn convince me that Mistress Ayn is the “Steven Spielberg of FemDom.” Session after session, weekend after weekend, Mistress Ayn orchestrates as a skilled director established Mistresses and Goddesses, as well as newcomer Mistresses, switches and slaves.  Actors accept Her direction, follow Her lead, and gracefully fit into their roles as participants in Mistress Ayn’s production.  She seems to know how to get the most out of each actor, when to move aside and allow a seasoned Mistress to take charge, or when to step in with guidance or inspiration for other [...]

People often ask My advice regarding which chastity device they should buy. In this video I go over the highlights of the Holy Trainer which I think is a good “off the shelf” option.  I over its good points and drawbacks so you can make an informed decision.  At a price of around $170 (yes, there has been inflation) it’s a good option for someone wanting something better than the cheap plastic knockoffs and less expensive than a custom made device. ***************** The website for the Holy Trainer is here: https://www.holytrainer.com/male-chas… ​ Watch the full video on YouTube or on My Fan Site. Review of the Holy Trainer chastity device The Ultimate Male Chastity Key Holding Experience