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Begging for training.

May I continue sucking cocks of real men? May I continue pleasuring women? May I look more appealing and understand whats needed of me. I want men loosing control on me. I want women wetting themselves 'cause of me. I'm pathetic, effeminate, unmanly and I have inadequate packaging.  I'm on the fence, wasteful and ignorant of others. I'm immature and easily amused. I know it will be a lot of work, I'm not ready... My financial commitment will be minimal s my income is 110% in use.  I have more time, and can be used financially (10% of the work week).  

FLR Diary 01 01 02 2017

My Mistress purchased a chastity belt for me, I failed her last year, wanting full castration but backing out of it. I can't afford the constant needles and perscriptions for a full effeminate body, nor should I, I'm not looking to become a real woman.  I am still learning, and this is my new years resolution.  I will be monitoring my sexual progress, and documenting what I can here. Self gasms this year:4 Mistress approved:0 female sexual experiences:0 Current weight 170  goal:140 urethral size: 6 mm   goal:5 inches. anal toy size: 3 inch diameter  goal: 7 (fist) french maid, slave, brown suit, and other  outfits.

By |2017-04-21T14:23:16-07:00January 2nd, 2017|Categories: FLR Training Diary|Tags: , , |0 Comments

Nella’s Introduction to femdom training 2017

I've known since long ago I'm not male, that I have never been comfortable with labels or gender defined socializing. Don't get me wrong, I'll never aspire to be fully women either. I want to socialize, but can not be what is expected of a real man or woman, or submissive like a good slut or doggy, or dominant like a great Master/Mistress/Teacher.  I have enjoyed being spanked harder than some, but I don't see myself as a pain-slut. I want to be used, I want to be acknowledged, I want to play, and I want to learn, and I want to help others become more than what they are now. I hope to have rewards like the above picture.  I luv big [...]

By |2017-04-21T14:23:16-07:00January 2nd, 2017|Categories: Member Posts|Tags: , , , , , |0 Comments