Weekend of perverse decadence

Well yesterday was many, many hours of using and abusing bitch-boy. Multi-orgasmic and delightful in every way, (for me; I am not sure bitch-boy feels the same!) And today, I am for the first time visiting the home of Mistress Nicola and her slave/husband. More perverse fun I am sure. Mistress Nicola and I have made our plans. As she, in the past, has not been so interested in inflicting humiliation as physical suffering, her puppet has not endured much in the way of humiliation. Of course, I LOVE inflicting humiliation. There will, among other things, be plenty of fun with impact implements and there will be a session of dickie-discipline. There will also be diapers and lockable plastic panties and lots of humiliation. I am so looking forward [...]

Trans-Mortem

The whole process of my breakup is not done. We are still in awkward close quarters, negotiating the logistics of the seperation as we each move into our own household. Lots of crying. He took a week off work to grieve and has been pretty much high half the time. I have tried to get out of the house more and took up archery. I have developed a sort of insomnia as well, a rarity, and stay up late writing this. What have I learned? This isn’t a post mortem, but a trans-mortem. Things are still going. Or rather, still falling apart. What do you do when you love someone but they fundamentally want and need different things? Obviously breaking up with Wildcard [...]

bitch becomes seriously dominated 24/7

I received this wonderful comment (below) regarding the impact my manual has had on one couple. What a fantastic dominant woman. Hoping this would happen for a few people around the world was exactly what motivated me to write the manual. Dear Mistress Scarlet I feel that I must message you to let you know that your recent book has had the most wonderful impact on my marriage. As a submissive soul I have been a reader of your blog for sometime. However, with the publishing of your manual I felt I could no longer hide my submissiveness from my Wife and the manual gave me the confidence to broach the subject with her. My Wife/Mistress is the most amazing woman and I do [...]

Poor bitch-boy double dommed again!

My new Mistress friend I mentioned in my blog post of July 22 is visiting again this week. She is coming in the middle day of three solid days of use and abuse to which bitch-boy will be subjected to; with no vanilla time during that period. Mistress Nicola is quite the sadist and bitch-boy can expect to suffer considerably for her and my amusement and stimulation. Nettles will be a must as we are close to the end of the nettle season now. A sad time; but when nettles are out of season, the fall-back is Deep Heat roll-on and Linnex stick which are an excellent pair of substitutes! In fact, given the Linnex lasts AT FULL EFFECT  for about 40 minutes, [...]

Email domination begins

Well I know some of you will be horrified and full of disrespect for me but I have begun email domination. I have been experimenting with one submissive and it has gone well.  He is very satisfied and I am enjoying the experience. My desire to experience and continue to learn about submissives and DS I think is limitless and this is yet another way to gain experience. If you are interested then apply by leaving a comment on this post. My time is limited so not all applications are likely to be successful. I will not publish applications made by leaving a comment. These will be between the applicant and me. On a different matter I am pleased to say my recently published manual is proving [...]

The Tower and the Chariot

The news of my estranged mother’s breast cancer adds one more variable in the tornado of shrapnel that is my life. Good news on my insurance paperwork is the trade off. Probably getting paid for my month of sick. Can pay Wildcard back for last month’s rent. Got to figure out the rest of my life. Barring calamity, I have half a century left to work out. And I am listening to my medical professionals. Stop things that are making me sick. So migrained last night I missed the munch I technically run. I am… Done. Ok with it, actually, shedding it like a wool sweater in the desert. A wool sweater I hand knit, but maybe I deserve to be happy? I [...]

The visit of my new Domme friend

So my new Domme friend spent the afternoon with us. I provide only a flavour of highlights here because I have started working on Volume 12 of my published journals and the visit will be a full entry in that volume. With half hour to go before Mistress Nicola arrival, bitch-boy was dressed in his black and white maid’s uniform and could not have been more anxious, fretful, miserable and despondent. I kept rubbing salt into the wound, asking what he though Mistress Nicola  would think of him so attired, and if she would laugh at his pretty curtseying, etc. While it transpired to be the case that inflicting humiliation was less important to Mistress Nicola than inflicting physical discomfort, bitch-boy was certainly very, very humiliated anyway! But the physical [...]

A new Domme friend

Well I am about to spend time again with a new Domme friend I first met a short while ago. This week she is visiting bitch-boy and I and he has the nightmare of being introduced to, and suffering for a new Domme. It seems she is rather more into inflicting physical discomfort and restrictive bondage than into inflicting humiliation, so bitch-boy can look forward to a very affecting afternoon of a different hue to the hours of humiliation and tedium suffering he has been subjected to lately. How exciting for him! I will report back on the event. I fear that bitch-boy does not share my huge enthusiasm for her visit. Poor bitch-boy. LINK to my published journals. LINK to my published BDSM manual. [...]

Not firm-but-fair, its firm-AND-UNFAIR in my household

There is the disproportionate punishment. The sub is sent to tidy the kitchen. The tidying is done and I am feeling like being a bitch so an inspection of the ‘tidied’ kitchen  is undertaken. In reality it is perfect, but I behave with incredulous annoyance. although I am acting, my voice carries controlled irritation. ‘Look at the third mug down on the mug tree, you slovenly slut, it is facing a different way to the other mugs; get over the dining table now!‘ A caning follows. It is excessively disproportionate to the crime; and all the more arousing for me for being so; and all the more subjugating for the sub for being so. (And a sub is never more content than when feeling subjugated.) There is [...]

Tribal Solutions To Old Problems

Once upon a time I was assaulted. Three times, the last time I fought back and punched him in the head. I learned like all niafs in the BDSM scene that not everyone respects you. I grew up. I first made a space without him, got braver and called him out. In the mean time he raped someone. Allegedly. Anecdotes piled up. Nothing really came of my honesty. Then he popped up in my other life, as a nerd. Most of the people who deal with this turn to flight reactions, but something about this, and him, turns to fight. I check the people going to my nerdy event and he’s listed himself as interested. I know he is still out there bit [...]